a major happening that lead to this blog...

sitting here in film 020 tutorial, i now remember why i had teh idea to start up a blog again, and more specifically, this blog with this title.
so 2 weeks back, the second monday back to school in 2007, we watched Basic Instinct (Paul Verhoeven, 1992). Rated R. hm... i mean, it was pretty graphic. both sexually and violently. but the thing is, the sex scenes (yes, multiple) were full nudity. and the cameras didnt even TRY blocking some stuff out. nope.. it was just BANG full-on-in-your-face-zoom-up. so i thought.. "whats the difference between watching this and porn?" cus i didnt see a difference. well.. dunno what porn is like but i can imagine (errr... but wont imagine) and im guessing that Basic Instinct came kinda close.
ok... so some ppl reading this would be like "it's 2007. jeez... get a grip! sex is everywhere!". yeah.. i know its 2007. and even tho the movie was released in 1992, i still felt impure watcing that stuff. like yes, sex is a natural thing, and God made it too. but when used in the wrong way, its just... asfjaldkfjwaeojsdfflsj. not right. far from holy.
and while unconsciously watching that couple in front of me at the train station (refer to previous blog entry), i was to study for my film test. and all this stuff about castration (castration anxiety.. apparently it's a theory. hmm.....!), and women being objects, and all this other stuff that just made it.. wrong! stuff i didnt want to read. stuff that's making this world corrupt but the sad part is that ppl are portraying this stuff as good. worldly good. not godly good.
i sometimes wonder why am i in media studies? there's so much impure things and/or things that evoke impure thoughts. but i guess there'll be worldly ungodly things in all subjects. perhaps the science kids struggle with the whole God vs. science topic. business kids can struggle with greed, money,... to be successful is gaining more money. social sci kids can struggle with theories and stuff. kin kids can struggle with lusting after fellow 'fit / in shape' classmates or prof =P
and like my dad said when i asked him questions about my New Testament religious studies class. cus the class would be studying the NT from a scholarly perspective. and my dad said to me "this is a religious studies course. not spoon feeding you sunday school." so then i dropped the course and took compsci 033 instead. then my dad called me narrow-minded. =P
but anyways. that that test is over now. i dont feel like i did too well. and perhaps im using this whole reasoning as an excuse for not really wanting to read that stuff. but just wanted to take note of another 'impure' temptation (its not even a temptation. iunno the word for it.. just more unholy stuff i see in life =\).
*sigh*... its sucha huge contrast from the Passion07 environment. i miss it. but the Passion movement. i see it as if we can't bring the world to Passion07, then we've got to spread it and bring Passion07 to the world!

$10.

i'll bet anyone $10 that the 'couple' that was making out in front of me in line at the train station on Monday morning in Toronto, that one will dump the other after valentines day.
except no one can win or lose the bet cus i dont even know who those ppl were! =P the girl stayed in toronto, and who knows where the guy goes for univ (or even in univ at all!).
but yeah.. darn it was awkward. being behind them in line, line wasn't moving yet... errrr.! i tried to look off to the side, sipping my Second Cup but noises from them were also distracting and disturbing.
one thing i've been getting outta all the christian reading i've been doing is that relationships shouldn't be selfish. it should be focusing on caring for the other person. and pastor tim slightly brushed on marriage this past sunday. how a marriage only works when it's a holy relationship. when the husband and wife strive to be holy, both to God and to each other. willing to forgive, and also willing to repent. whole. and clearly that 'couple' in front of me were making out with each other to satisfy themselves and themselves alone. regardless of it made other ppl around them awkward.
...well, ok. only cus i felt uncomfortable. so thats me. myself. I. selfish. tahts why im blogging about this. hmm...
on another note. being in MIT, the 'MIT' thing to do would be to take a picture without the couple realizing, and me also in the picture! haha.. saw many of these pix from OWeek. gotta admit.. it was quite the funny. but that's only to make fun of or avoid the fact that im single. but is being single all that bad? i'd say no. really look up to Paul (from the Bible) in these cases. he was single. and he's done soooooooo much for God. ok fine.. you need a present day example? Chris Tomlin. using their 'singleness' as a gift from God, to serve Him. so amazing. such amazingness.!

ok one more thing. i've been playing "This Is Our God" by Tomlin and Crowder from Tomlin's Live From Austin Music Hall (see http://www.last.fm/user/shnickyfan) on repeat. and i swear. everytime i play it, it increases in volume on it's own. haha... i turn it down. but it goes back up to previous volume! well.. at least from what im hearing. hah.. tis a good song.! so not complaining!