so i've officially dubbed 2007 as the year of "awkwardness". altho i know ppl have been using the word "awkward" since i was in gr7 or so (2000?), ive never heard it soooo much until this year. EVERYONE's saying it. and since its been said alot, guess ive realized theres been more awkward moments. maybe there were just as much in the past but they werent labelled as "awkward moments" while it has been this year. so yeah.. a whole year of awkwardness. too many different cases of awkward moments too. awkward silences, awkward questions, awkward turtle, awkward cow, awkward sheep, awkward ppl, awkwardness everywhere. even the word itself is starting to look slightly weird cus im seeing it too much. oh! i remember something was awkward tasting. think it was this really random bbt flavour. HAHA.. destinys? or wait.. that was the one where everyone refused to order it. LOL.
so yeah. why this "random" awkward blurb? cus there's been a LOT of awkward moments this past week. and everytime im in that situation, theres like a play and loop button inside my head that got pressed. all it does is like an alarm that goes "awkward. awkward. awkward. awkward" etc. haha..

hmm.. cant wait til move in to london to live there.
can you believe it? im not looking fwd to my LA trip but rather looking fwd to moving into the london! i mean.. its LA. hollywood. living in a hotel in beverly hills. gunna walk down sunset blvd. meet some korean guys at my cousins' wedding. (=P). why am i not excited? i should be. but im just... not.
was listening to a song recently and these lyrics stuck out:
"it's a place where you've never been but it feels like home".
thats kinda how i see summit i guess. ive never "lived" there (crashing at 51-7 doesnt count right? haha..) but somehow, i can just envision it. i know its gunna be "home" there. more so than my toronto home. also cus i havent been in my toronto home that much this summer. being raised by chinese parents, you can never be home with nothing to do. like when ive got nothing to do, i'll go find something to do. its how i was raised as a kid. you know.. this schedule. school year sched. mon-fri, 9-3:30, school. then at night...
monday - public free chinese school
tues - piano
wed - public free chinese school
thurs - math (bleh.. kumon)
fri - private mando chinese school
sat - private chinese school (morning), swimming (noon), children's choir (afternoon - early evening).
sun - church then hwk?
so even tho i was unemployed for the first 2 months of summer, i still busied myself with stuff. not education but softballing, chilling, worship practice, church meetings, small groups, etc. then when a job came, it was cutting down the day time activities, but the night time activities never stopped. weekends have just been pure softball pretty much. if im not playing a game, there's umping or cheering or watching. busy busy busy.
maybe next year my summer goal should be to schedule some time to spend at home. even if its just playing the wii. it was pretty good bonding time with my dad back in may/june where i was able to stay up late (due to unemployment!) and we really tackled that Rayman. HAHA...

but yeah.. so where does this "home" bit relate to the "awkward" bit? well, there'll be loey in london. gosh we've both experienced so many mutual awkward situations (not with each other. but in the midst of other ppl..) to a point where its not even awkward anymore. HAHA... peanut butter jelly time? =P and as well, other ppl just next door or around the corner. =) OH! and term 2 night classes. LOL. both my night classes are ACF ppl filled! and we didnt plan it either! its after course selections, "what are you taking this year? REALLY?!?! ME TOOO!!" haha... gosh we're not gunna learn a thing! its not just 2 ppl taking the course, but its a BUNCH of us! no skipping guys... no skipping!

haha.. anyways, im posting this at work. so... back to work? =P

L-L-L-LONDON?!?!?!

so when i first started this job, all i did was look forward to softball. cus that was the beginning of the season. after watching senior games for a month (mostly DMM games), it made me wanna play more and more!
and now, after 5 games, Sanctified is currently 4-1. =) WOW eh? lets take a look into the past seasons for the SCAC teams.

'05. Ravens. 0-10. (heh...)
'06. Sanctified. 1-9. (yay!..???)
'07. Ravens: currently 4-3-1. Sanctified: currently 4-1. =)

and you know what else? the term "playoffs" is actually sneaking into our convos! DANGGGG.! some didomi kids are actually holding off handing in their summer camp forms (which is the playoffs weekend. errr...) and waiting to know our games results first! so proud of Sanctified. not only our scores this year, but also as a team. especially that one game on July 29th. it was our 3rd game that weekend. we were all pretty drained and started off the game quite badly. also, the team we were playing against had a stacked shortstop, 1b, and LF, while they rotated the rest of the field which were their "weaker" areas. being tired, and noticing how unfair it was, we were losing our spirit, focus, and skills. we were tied with the other team. then suddenly, steve pulls a GRAND SLAM outta the park home run! we were up by 4. =) it was like everyone was energized. we started cheering again. for both ourselves and the other team. but after the game, we realized that it doesnt matter if we're winning, tied, or down by 20 runs. our spirits should still be up there no matter what. cheering for both, ourselves and the other team. this is CCSA. we're here to play for God. take a look at a part of our Sanctified cheer.

we're Sanctified
we're purified
we'll play for God,
who'll be glorified
we're living for His name
we'll play a nice clean game!

when i wrote that part of the cheer, apart for looking for words that ends in "fied" (hah.. i wanted to add in satisfied. =P), the last line was a major line. a lot of the times, we're tempted to cheat. we really want that win really badly! or at times, we want to argue with the umps about certain calls (im still guilty of that). but as it is CCSA, we should be aiming to play nice clean games. just take it easy. CCSA is pretty much a chance to socialize and get to know the other team, a chance to fellowship. and thats where the devos part plays a huge role.

its definitely been a great learning experience so far, being on leadership and all. altho im still a bit iffy on the umping bit. dont get me wrong, i like umping. i dont know why so many ppl 'avoid' it or 'wanna get it over with'. i actually enjoy it. but somehow, this season, ive managed to bump into the most rare umping cases ever. haha... questions that ive brought to ppl on ccsa exec and even they had to 'look up' the answer. we'll see what happens next year. i'll definitely write the test (ok.. if you've read this, you're keeping me accountable in taking the test next year! hold it against me!!) and we'll go on from there. if i get carded or not is another whole discussion. hahaha.... but its true. just cus you scored high on the test doesnt make you a better ump.

but anyways, back to the first sentence of this post. what i originally wanted to blog about. LOL. yeah.. "soooo many paragraphs later.. i finally get to the point". =P

so when i first started this job, all i did was think about softball. i looked up softball related stuff online, wrote team/leadership emails and made em all fancy, made all those attendance charts and stuff, etc. but now, all i can think about is september! back into London i go! =) and as much as i dislike academics, i actually dont mind classes that much. my schedule's pretty relaxed (ok fine.. REALLY relaxed). and the only thing i do mind are assignments. lol! but yeah! relaxed sched, acf ppl all around, campus, downtown london, non china/fob fest, SUMMIT, crabbys... =) just a bit less than a month left... almost there...!

but before going back to london, there's still half a season of softball left (and playoffs? eh eh eh??), my G test, and LA trip!

im actually a bit scared of going to LA. why? cus what if i like it so much i decide to move there? since is hollywood and media central. it'd make sense. but Toronto is also hollywood north. hmm....ah well. hope i bump into wongfu! =P

hehe.. i like how i can have so much time to think over things like this while at work. its like im being "paid" to sort out some of my thoughts. its great! =D