another year...

so its new years eve. another year.

woooooo!!

yeah. its 10pm and im sitting at home. *whoa!*

yup.. no plans at all tonight. *whoa again!*

ive been quite non-social this holiday. just needed some quiet time, time alone, time at home, and been at work. total opposite of my summer pretty much (except the work part). 

but yeah. 2008's over and im quite happy. not exactly a year i enjoyed. so really hoping 2009 will be just superb. its not hard to top 2008. haha... 

maybe i'll stop being so blah. and think of something good that happened in 2008. 

summer. yup. specifically the post-sball game dinners. those were good times. since different teams played different weekends, it was always a different bunch of ppl mingling and eating. gotta love it!

wonderland. oh the thrill of behemoth and extreme skyflyer! oh, cant forget shockwave and cliffhanger too! wooooo! but ive conquered everything at wonderland now. time to venture to further and more extreme theme parks this summer!

tc rec team 2008. wow those were some good times! the whole 'viet' translation thing! UNO and contact! then the tc night times sharing within rec, recapping of the day. cant forget post-tc meet ups for wings and oh mann... andy and my front lawn. HAHAHA.

wmb at the toronto santa claus parade was pretty awesome too. sure it was tiring and sore and started out as freezing and ended up as sweaty, but totally worth it. both the air time and seeing so many kids so excited and happy. 

coluni blue mountain trip was pretty amazing. the chalet was absolutely beautiful! plus a full day of snowboarding. oh man.. im still sore as i type. but the blackout during the monday night was a great time of taboo and singing some worship songs. 

passionDC. singsingsing! and following the WT. what a journey its been. and onemillioncan! im gunna propose it to scac's missions committee this coming sunday! =) totally excited! which reminds me. a year from now, i'll be back in ATL counting down 2009, and excited for passion2010! oh mann.. its gunna be amazing. i just know it. dig more wells. more Bibles being mailed. so many other things that'll be done. :D

welps! i guess thats the main few good memories from 2008 that i'll keep with me. lets not remember the bad, but rather, learn from it. so now its 10:30pm. and my dad had the genius idea of hotpotting thru the new year. haha.. so im off! im gunna hotpot til 2009! :D 

*hits psych mix*

SHOT THRU THE HEART. AND YOU'RE TO BLAME. YOU GIVE LOOOVE A BAD NAME! 

ahahahahaha

PS. 2008 is also the year I WENT MAC. macbook pro and iphone. haha.. oh boyy...!

so many choices...

well.. not that many.

but enough for me to make a multiple choice question of out it.

a) --------

b) ---

c) -------

d) ------

e) -----

but yeah... i choose f.

f) none of the above.

don't be a jonah

or else you'll get GG'd by God.

actually.. you'll get GG'd by God regardless of what you do cus He can. but may not necessarily will.

but still. don't be a jonah.

shattered.

yup. totally shattered. but i needed to hear it. haha...

what you expect good times to be good times usually isnt as good. cus you've hyped it up for yourself. but its always unexpected things that happen afterwards which totally make your day.
oh how i love toronto!
kinda sad to go back to london. cus its also gunna be quite nuts academically, plus parades and/or football every weekend in nov til 1st weekend of dec.

you know what... its like 1.75 years/3.5 terms go to til im back in TO for good. haha... i guess it'll zoom by relatively quick. 

rahhhhhhhhhh!!! *random noise i felt like making*

Passion May09 WT dates? Toronto hopes?

Passion 2010!!!! haha...

been following the Passion movement a lot lately. its pretty amazing i must say. especially www.onemillioncan.com DSN! i wanted to start some DSN last summer. but i never got around to doing it. excuses... busy finding a job. no money. dont know the pastor well enough to start something like this. who wound continue it after sept when i went back to london. scared of lack of responses. i dont know how to handle finances. . hmm... =\

feeling like a moses. 

well.. all those 'excuses' is just a part of it. theres more to the story of why i havent DSN'd yet at scac. (aka more excuses... haha...) but yeahhh... iunno. i dont know.

I LOVE TORONTO.

glory, i give glory, to the One who saved my soul!

absolutely hooked onto this song. especially the 2nd verse.
glory, i give glory
to the One who saved my soul!
you found me and you've freed me
from the shame that was my own
i can not begin to tell
how merciful you've been
Lord, my ears have heard of You
but my now eyes have seen!

a place to think..

i absolutely love hot showers where i get a good chunk of my thinking done. 

its just absolutely amazing!

GQT. good quality time.

just goes to show.

who really does care.

who actually means something.

thanks for tonight, boys. 

best brothers i can ever have. =)

bring on the next decade of my life!

im excited.

what a shocker...

so im studying for my geography 2090: space exploration midterm.
and i never knew this.. but ive just discovered that there are over 8,000 man made satellites (which are functioning) orbiting our Earth. so meaning there are PLENTY more which aren't functioning and basically.. garbage satellites just orbiting our earth.
so after watching Wall-E, i guess that it was pretty accurate when they showed the spacecraft leaving Earth, and Wall-E was attached to the edge of it. i thought it was a pretty funny joke when sputnik was flying off of Wall-E's head after they shot thru the crazy layer of satellites when exiting the Earth's atmosphere. haha... but i never realized just how much junk we have up there. in a way, i knew we couldnt rely on like a satellite or 2 for all our weather, GPS systems, cell phones, TV, government stuff, etc. but i never would have guessed that there's over 8,000 up there. wow...
ever since i started taking geography seriously (as in i wanted to major in it), ive realized more and more how much we're abusing the planet.
and watching all these movies which take place in the future are all quite accurate to some degree. like I Am Legend. so many scientists coming up with different things in labs now, something is bound to occur and wipe out a good chunk of the earth's population. look at SARS for instance. so it didnt wipe out THAT many ppl, but it still stirred chaos and panic around the world. but funny how it took something like that to make us unify as a planet to stop it. the world health organization (WHO). gg UN. then after its stopped, we all go back to our racism and stuff. *sigh*.... like yeah.. i mean, our current generation right now (aka the ppl who are alive) will be okay. we've got enough resources to last us our lifetime. but at the rate our population is growing, our resources are definitely not enough. we're closing in on reaching the 8billion point. its insane. when my parents were born, it was at like the 3billion point or so. we've almost tripled in like 50 years.
and if you think technology will reach a point where we can leave earth and migrate to some other planet, nope. its not happening. or at least there hasnt been ANY discoveries of a suitable living place. so even if we assume we find a suitable location soon, there's still plenty to do before we can migrate there. building enough space crafts to transport everyone there will take eons... thast if Earth has enough materials left! aka Earth is screwed if we keep this up!

haha.. can't believe i've gone all "hug a tree". =P

i want to...

whack the crap outta an sball.

look ahead. just keep going!

i stayed at the library for 4hrs today. 3.5hrs of productive reading. whooooo! the other 0.5hr spent noting down how productive i was, and going on facebook =P
not bad eh? looks like im finally getting somewhere with my studies =)

yup. just gotta keep going. refocus. move on and strive towards whats to come. including....
HOCO THIS WEEKEND!!!!
my first ever hoco! oh its gunna be gooooood. saturday kicks off with a 10am parade down richmond street. then a football game at 2pm, and wmb is doing the half time show! its gunna be hot stuff. be prepared for some extreme purple pride!
plus scac's coluni visiting sat/sun! =) its always good to see ppl from home come up. then some sball on sunday afternoon (yehhhhh!).

then 4 days of school. yikes... 2 midterms. =\
but you know what that means? i'll have a relatively free/relaxed thxgiving! i cant wait! spend some time with family. =)
hurrahs!
bring on whats to come! it can only get better.

ive realized i have the choice. to dwell on the past, or to go on. there really is no point dwelling on the past, cus time moves on anyways. so why not move on with time? doesn't mean ive forgotten it. still think about it, but i can choose to not let it affect me (as much).

ps. think i busted my thumb AGAIN. but whatever, im still gunna play on. haha... sball ftw!

weak. so stinkin' weak.

retreat was definitely not the place i should've been this weekend. despite the irony of me telling everyone else to go.
focus? not even close. my mind is far from that.
i should've been with band at queens and its busing adventure around london.
or i should've been at FB2k8 in TO. (cant believe i turned down 5 invites!!)
or i should've been at BTWD in TO as well.
*sigh...
oh wells.
crunch time. school time.
lets go!


edit/update (3:45pm):
not bad. finished assignment (like an hr ahead of schedule), feeling slightly better (hurray worship music! so happy! haha...), and yeah.
this past weekend is the past. forget what i could've done instead. just move on.
2 Cor 4:8-9, 16-18

its been awhile...

3am. friday night/saturday morning. whatever you wanna call it.
i blog once again.
haha.. school's kicking in again, summer's over. its time to write stuff in my blog again!

so, reading over my last post, its been a while. just a tad bit more than 2 months and so much has happened! mainly softball. haha... but its been quite an interesting 2 months of softball.
softball related:
- on the dl for like 1.5months (dh for a few ccsa games)
- much venting (haha...)
- plenty of post softball dinners [seriously good times! highlights of my summer for sures!]
- the whole ccsa jrs 'champs' dealio... =P
- learning so much more softball from non ccsa games
- meeting plenty of softball... addicts
- not bad batting avg for this ccsa jr season :D (16/23? all singles. haha...)
non softball related:
- getting a macbook pro :D
- making the vbs parents night slideshow (dangs... it was so nice! unfortunately, posting up a video of kids on the internet without their parents' permission isnt the best)
- TMM!!!!
- A&A's wedding!!!! (being completely honest... most boring reception ever but hey.. they're married! :D)
- babies Kalos W. (im an aunt again! :O), David C, and Samuel C (twins)!
- last min drumming for fx (dangs... no practice before hand, just briefly going thru the songs... sorta.. like 30min before leading. haha...)
- canada day fireworks at woodbine beach was extremely beautiful. like wow... (okay, so this took place before my last post. but still.. i didnt mention it before!)
- conquering extreme skyflyer and "no hands" front row behemoth at wonderland! (also unmentioned)

so yeah. that was just a tid bit of my summer. it was awesome. seriously awesome. maybe it didnt start out so awesome. but it definitely had its highlights thruout the summer. CC alone was a whole experience of its own.. from pre-CC stuff, to CC itself, and post-CC as well (speaking of which.. i havent paid for CC yet LOL!!!). working at wonderland.... i dont know where to start. it was awesome yet horrid at the same time. mainly the travelling distance, certain days' work hrs, and paycheck was crap. but i love theme parks and assisting 'park visitors'. then i also lost my car accident-ginity this summer. but that day turned out pretty well afterwards. =)

so thats toronto life. i definitely lost track of how many times i had bbt this summer. just plain TOO MANY. not complaining tho. i cherished it everytime cus i knew i wouldnt get the quality bbt here in london. haha... so coming back to london, meant o-week prep! aka wmb promo team. whoooo! a full week of rehearsals. fun stuff! yeahyeah.. im a band geek. but what the heck. purple pride! haha... it was good getting back into western mode a full week and a half before classes actually began. back at west london, acf... expecting to be spiritual fed. not saying there isnt any in toronto... just at a slower consumption rate? hoping that'll change soon. *SG!* more on that in future posts. =P plus there's JMC09 coming up as well! looking fwd to that. hmm... what else... um.. iunno! but yeah! back in london, 2 years to go. time to work hard. and i guess i can start by um, sleeping earlier than 3:[stinkin']30AM!!!

explanation for lack of posts..

when you have ppl to spill your thoughts to, blogging becomes unnecessary.. i think.
life's too busy to blog anyways.
work, softball, church, some sort of a social life... busy!
summer's going great tho! i love it in toronto. i miss london just a tad bit.. but toronto is still home for me. but then again, i see western ppl here in toronto too! haha.. but i still spend more time with toronto ppl. =) its been good seeing a lot of ppl again. the convenience of having a car and just driving everywhere.
anyways.. work tires me out. its only 9:30pm but im ready to pass out. haha...

oh yeah.. course selections 2mrw. so i tried putting together a schedule today. lets hope i get the courses i want. term1 is looking really good.. as in all the stuff i wanna take and a pretty good sched. term2 is more of the required stuff and early mornings. but i still get fridays off both terms :D so lets hope i get the sched ive planned out.. haha...

so many doors have closed.
so many unsure foggy/blurry paths to choose...
and now one door has opened.
it crazy. like... literally-never-been-done-before crazy.
yet so many things in my life that have happened seem to lead up to it. so this path make a lot of sense... except that its never been done before.
but you know what? im putting my sails up, and waiting to see if God will be the wind and steer me in this direction.
im excited. yet a tad bit nervous/scared.
but wow... like wow! this is such an incredible path!

so many emotions have happened in the last 24hrs or so.
yet just now, at 2am, while doing something, i made a promise that i would pray for someone after i finished doing... something. so i did. i prayed.
and this verse came to me. it has never hit me so hard.

Phil 3:8
What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.

whatever has happened in the last 24hrs... whatever caused the multiple emotions... who cares?!?! it means nothing and its worth nothing. when its compared to "the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord". isnt that the greatest thing? EVER?!?! indeed it is.

what a powerful time of prayer. really.. all these other things.. worries, frustrations, joys, whatever else.. seems so silly. all i needed to do was get back on some one on one time with God. and it was beautiful.

ridiculous...

how is it possible that i've been job hunting since january and still nothing?

job hunting makes me feel worthless.
which gives me even less motivation to study for my last exam.
which is probs my worse course too.
this sucks.

i get an interview. only that its in toronto and during exam time. so i call (long d) to rearrange for another time.. just 4 days after. ok.. so that works out. then i get a call 3 days before the interview telling me that the position has already been filled. what the crap?!?!

fired off another like 5 resumes and cover letters today.
study what? no.
and let me guess... still no replies from anyone.
what the heck.
i have a feeling im gunna be SUPER depressed when i look for a full time permanent job in 2 years. yikes...

one more exam...

in need...
of motivation...
to study. =(

GO SIGN UP FOR CC08!!!
www.campus-challenge.com/2008

in exactly one week...

i will be back in TO.
probably softball'd a bit more.
new episode of how i met your mother.
new episode of house.

OH SNAP! :D

i love weekends!

wow... so it all began with family day weekend. when it was TC Rec meeting and my parents came back from their missions trip. that kicked off the start of many AWESOME weekends.

after that was reading week. which mean i was down in DC for PASSIONDC!! needless to say, another amazing weekend. things happened that were beyond my control.

the weekend ending off reading week was TC REC CRAZY PREP weekend. a full saturday of just planning with REC. we split off for a few hours before meeting up at demetres then back to my house for some mafia/contact. hahaha... GOOD TIMES.

the weekend after that is the WEEKEND BEFORE TC. AHHHHHHHH!! needless to say, another weekend full of TC prep. the entire saturday was with rec team. it was the crazy snowstorm weekend too. and concert of prayer on the sunday was just.. WOW. definitely prepped us all for the next 4 days of TC.

weekend after that... was the weekend after TC. going back to church, where all the kids were still so pumped. volunteers were still close with each other and chillin' so much. email spammage. accountability to the max. AWESOME. also, seeing all the scac kids (high school fellowship) leading the worship that sunday. they also had a body worship section. it was really really great! :D

then it was Easter weekend. whoohoo! Good Friday service, all you can eat lunch with coluni. coluni bs at night. CC meeting on the saturday. REC team met up at night. 200 wings WOOT. another great time spent at timmys until like 1am. easter Sunday. oh! cant forget! tossed around a softball on sunday afternoon! plus sharon/natalie's bday dinner at night. pretty much spent that 'dinner' watching House with my cousin. haha...

weekend after that.. 3 scac kids came to visit LONDON!!!! yeahhh!! new froshies! :D did the whole combo. ACF on friday, crabbys after, they stayed at summit, BKs for lunch, then went to Marble Slab. WOW. hahaha... then the usual on sunday after service, go out for lunch together. =)

which brings me to this past weekend. Friay started off with ACF banquet. YAY!!! toronto ppl came! =) rex, caleb, and michelle! after banquet, we hit up timmys until like 6am. HAHAHAHA... what a night! its not about where you are or what you do. its really about who you're with. went to BKs on the saturday afternoon, rex and i walked back to summit cus we also got prince al's milkshakes (HEAVY!!). crabbys at night. softball on the sunday afternoon. acf vs kcf. and acf won. AHAHAHA. :D

and whats coming up this weekend? TC Appreciation dinner!! i cant wait to see REC team again! =) and coaches. and other volunteers. haha... oh! cant forget. softball stuff too!


what a streak of weekends eh? sadly.. that streak is gunna be broken by something call exams. =( but its ok. summer looks promising. im excited. emails are already firing back and forth with plans and activities. its gunna be another busy summer. pretty much the busyness i outlined in the last post, and taking further steps.
wow... 5 more exams until im done 2nd year. crazy!!!!

oh! another awesome thing. finding out more and more western froshies for next year! definitely excited about this =) yup. already recruiting more kids into ACF. AHAHAHA... frosh cell leader again perhaps? who knows. i dont. we'll see...!

busy but blessed

my brain and my schedule has been so ridiculously packed lately. its nuts. but its been amazing.

Rec team's been pretty tight. =) both in good times and keeping each other accountable... like when our jokes get outta hand. haha... every moment spent together, whether in person or the crazy 14 person msn chat (oh gosh), totally worth it. love you guys and girls! =)

TC... been keeping up with some TC kids (high schoolers). just to see how they're doing post-tc. also been talking to some coaches still. so =) its great. takes up more time and brain thinking space, but once again, totally worth it.

CC08!! website / registration is UP AND RUNNING at www.campus-challenge.com/2008 (YEAH!!!). we've had 1 person sign up already. :D its at Tyndale this year. (save that $5-$10 on gas money). save yourself some long weekend rush hour traffic on the 401. it also costs less (due to location change) so save yourself another like $50 compared to last year. COME COME COME.

so last ACF this past friday. banquet coming up this friday. frosh cell was last night. many things were taking place last night. still to do... banquet video. send pictures asap to uwoacf.av@gmail.com. yayyy!! ive been told that the banquet video is the highlight of the night. uh ohh... pressure's on! haha... a few sleepless nights, more brain space taken up. attempting to sum up this past year's ACF and bring back all the memories? totally worth it!

scac... softball. wow. i dont know where to begin. blessed with so many more players than expected. which will mean changes and decisions will need to be made ASAP. which only means more meeting times (probs multi-ppl msn chats) and more brain usage. but once again.. totally worth it!
more scac opportunities. including the summer intern position. things have changed. i just MIGHT apply. ive got less than a week to decide. yikes... not much time. pretty busy. but i gotta decide soon. need to pray about it more.

school... who cares. not like i dont care. but rather im not gunna spend my time thinking about it and trying to plan my life down to the last detail. stats say that ppl will change their career like 3-4 times in their life. whatever ppl study in univ, its kinda rare that they will actually stick with a career that they studied... unless its something super specific and they're high marks achievers. so my only goal now is to stay in univ and get a degree (i dont care what). i honestly cant wait to start working. cus im not a studying person. but rather, every single job ive had, the employer likes me and wants me back. according to my dad, ive got a logical sense of thinking / planning / problem solving. i do well in the work field.
im definitely lost at what i should study. applied to ryerson (back in gr12) and york (this past school year) and rejected by both. (what the crap. rejected by ryerson AND york but still going at western? makes no sense whatsoever. =P) but doors to the media industry have been slamming shut in my face. i think its God's way of telling me its not where i should be headed. and if keep trying to open a closed, locked door, then im just being stupid. so im not gunna. instead, i'll go wherever He leads me. i have no clue where that's going, but i know He's going, so im going. =)

so i dont think a 'reflective' post of TC is gunna come. but if you wanna know, feel free to contact me about it. ive already sent out a few emails about it to ppl... many aspects to it and each email only covers 1 aspect. i can always dig them up and send them all to you. haha...

ok. back to busy-ness. i still need to slot in softball somewhere... just in case the weather cooperates that one day. :D ive already tossed around once (easter sunday) but its been so cold ever since. that was sucha teaser. =( melt snow.. MELT!!!

so that was TC...

thoughts on TC to come later. (maybe...)
we'll. i'll probs write up something when im bored in astro in my monday night class or something.

but now that TC's over.. whats next?
- softball sign ups.
- ACF year end banquet :D
- CC08! (need to get crackin' on this)
- let softball begin!!!!

hmm... still on the lookout for a summer job...

but yeah. softball? haha...

just a tad bit too excited!

its currently 4:42am. you can call it late late saturday night. or bright and early sunday morning.
basically ive got to be up in about 4hrs to get to church. yet i havent been able to fall asleep. technically, its only 3:42 but its the 'daylight savings'. blah! so i lost an hour of staying up/sleeping. whatever you wanna call it.

so ive spent nearly 12hrs with TC REC today. and i can only say im SUPER excited for TC. as i laid in bed, trying to fall asleep, TC just kept flowing thru my mind. thinking back to this 'TC season'. haha! basically, its never winter (jan-march) if im not TC prepping. cus thats how its been since 2003/2004. sometimes it starts as early as August, other times as late as the January before TC. but the only reason i keep coming back to TC is because at TC2002, thats where i first encountered God, and that there IS more to being a Christian than just attending church every sunday, fellowship every friday, and answering all the sunday school questions. i will NEVER forget TC2002's worship sessions in that T3C sanctuary with 1000 others. (yes, it was the year when senior/junior conference was joint.) it was also the first time i did NOT zone out during the message but hung on to every single word! i still remember the friday-sunday before TC was 7-up's winter camp. i came home on the Sunday afternoon with the worst stomach ache possible. and it lasted for the LONGEST time. even when i got into bed in the early evening, i was still in pain. it was crazy! i thought i wasnt gunna be able to make it to TC. but as you know, i DID make it. haha... and it definitely was a milestone in my life. (milestone. tc2003's theme. 7 miles!) cus i got baptized 2 weeks after (Easter was in late March. just like how it is this year).

but ANYWAYS, back to the original reason for this post.... im excited because i cant wait to see what's God's gunna do at TC. this year, both junior and senior conferences have maxed out! thats OVER 1000 high schoolers who're gunna go! also, this year, they didnt have any difficulty getting their 'goal' number of TC captains! cus usually, by late january/early february, the TC co-ordinators are scrambling, trying to find more captains. but this year, before 2008, they already had all those spots filled! amazing or what? and with maxed out registration, that only means more captains (if the location can hold so many!).

so during the loooooong TC REC meeting today, we ended off (before dinner) with a time of prayer. and the song, God of this City just came to me.
greater things have yet to come
greater things are still to be done in this city at TC!!
and thru TC, great things will happen to this city as well!
i pray that teens who have never met God, or had a false perception of Him will meet Him this weekend.
that teens who have always known of God but never personally met God to meet Him. (like me back then!)
that teens who have met God, but have distanced themselves, will find Him again and remember why He is so great!
i also pray for the volunteers to be humbled. because a lot of us think that we will be there to make an impact. that we are "TC alumni". but God may just turn that around and we'll be impacted instead. either way, we will also leave TC with a great reminder of how He is in control and we're not.

im totally stoked for TC. God's gunna move in amazing ways. its gunna be awesome! i just know it!
Sunday: Concert of Prayer @ 7pm @ RHCCC
Monday-Thursday: TEENS CONFERENCE 2008 Jr/Sr entire day @ RHCCC

I WILL SING SING SING

a week and one day ago, i was down in DC with 3000 other college/univ students in the Patriot Center @ George Mason University praising and worshiping God. i think its safe to say that none of us wanted to leave that atmosphere. we just wanted to keep going thru the night and worship thru song (and dance... or bounce :D). i couldnt care less if it was chris tomlin, matt redman, charlie hall, or anyone else from the crowd could've jumped on stage and led the worship. or even acappella! i just wanted to keep singing! SING SING SING! and no, it wasnt just the last 'send off' session, but for all 4 sessions. we didnt want the praising and worshiping to stop.
Day and night they never stop saying: "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come." Revelations 4:8

1 week and 1 day after that, i was back in SCAC's sanctuary for sunday service. ok! lets get the worshiping thru singing started!
Pure and Holy Passion as call to worship... ok... they picked it. why not. lets go with it.
second song, Nothing But the Blood. communion sunday. appropriate enough. ok. next song.
"please be seated."
what? thats it? i was just getting started!
on to the sermon. Matthew 5:27-30. on purity. Pastor Tim's a great preacher if you want to study the Bible. not too sure about applicable. but definitely awesome for learning from the Word.
songs of response... Worthy is the Lamb. i was worshiping. didnt notice much about it. lyrics alone are powerful enough.
next song of response. The Stand. too fast. didn't build up enough. wrong chords. oh nos.. im being super picky about worship again! wrong chords? i dont think thats being picky. im a drummer and i dont do notes. but i noticed wrong chords. cant really call that picky now can you?
and then 3rd song. i dont remember. was too distracted by The Stand. something they did with a repeated acapella chorus. i only remember this because i usually spend at least one or two lines not singing if its acapella so i can hear the voices around me praising God. but i dont think i heard much. =(
"please be seated".
why is there such a drastic difference?
i dont get it. we all believe in the same God. i see the same ppl at hillsong concert worship night, at TC, etc and they worship differently. WHY? its not the worship team. how do i know this? at scac's english church retreat, we invited Tyndale's worship band to lead us in worship and the response from the congregation was the same as any given sunday.
and NO its not because scac is super conservative. because a few years back, we didnt 'look like the most boring person on the earth' as Chris Tomlin would put it (haha.. yes. he actually said that at Passion07! proof? click here! at about 30sec.). i know im not supposed to judge others cus for all i know, they ARE worshiping in their hearts. but really... i honestly cant retain it! and i cant be the only one who physically displays it when i get excited to worship... or can i?
maybe its not about being a fruitcake around non christians only. afterall, Ashley was forced to go to church when she was younger. she just simply didnt get it. until her Fruitcake roommate came along in her senior year and second semester. and thru a transformation over 14 days, she understood it! she finally got the message and thats when she was changed for the rest of her life. maybe this is where i need to be a Fruitcake. at SCAC. just being myself. being weird in the right ways. because I GET IT!! i understand!
when it was time for communion, pastor tim got up there and read out Psalm 22. i have no clue how that relates to communion. other than the first line from the first verse, which is what Jesus said when He was on the cross. but the moment he started reading, i was like 'whatttt... thats kinda how im feeling!' you know.. when you read something and force it to apply to your situation just because. so im like "yeah.. i kinda feel like that. ok.. maybe not to the extreme of lions tearing their prey.. but maybe a watered down version?"
then Psalm 22:22 just stuck out to me!
I will declare your name to my brothers;
in the congregation I will praise you.
BAM! theres the confirmation for me to be a Fruitcake at SCAC.



OH.. i remember now. one of the songs we sang was Beautiful One by Tim Hughes. i dont remember when we sang it now that i think about it. i definitely have the song orders mixed up. haha... maybe Nothing but the Blood was part of the response set.. which would make sense to flow into communion. and it was a part of The Stand that was sung acapella? i dont know... lol!

OHH and another thing. if you want the full story of Fruitcake (or at least good enough of a story to understand all this Fruitcake business, lemme know. i'll send it to you)

OHHH if you havent realized, i've been using "OH" instead of "PS" in this blog entry. haha...

PPDD: Post - PassionDC Dilemma

so everyone's been asking "how was Passion?" and all i can honestly answer with is "it was.... ." i didnt have an answer. altho ive spent some post-passion time reflecting, i couldnt figure out what i had 'gotten' from it. cus the 'thoughts' that came to me at Passion seemed to get 'unconfirmed' from post-passion til now. like in the moment, it was like "yeahh!! that's what im gunna do." or "that's the answer!" but it really was an in the moment thing. so i still dont know.. .but there's one thing i do know. i realized i missed the comfort of worshipping like that, with so many others. genuinely worship, ppl so passionate, not caring about what the person next to them is doing. its great knowing that 3000 others around you are there and focused on God. i crave that type of atmosphere. its like glimpses of heaven =). ACF's been different this year. i dont know what it is, but its just not the type of fellowshiping i desire. SCAC? not even close. Passion? thats more like it! one particular thing i really enjoyed about passion07 was the community/family groups. its amazing how our family groups were made of up approx 8-10 ppl who didnt know each other at all, from all over the US (or the world), but we could share openly with each other. actually, its even MORE open than with ppl you know. cus we'll highly likely never see these ppl on Earth again. and plus we've all got one thing in common, and that is God. and as we shared more and more, we all had similar troubles/questions/concerns. we're not alone. ooooh!! they touched on that at PassionDC. for some ppl, they were the only one from their campus. but at Passion, we saw that we weren't alone. there with us, was 3000 others and we're all part of God's army. =) that was a great reminder. cus i kinda feel like im the 'only one' from scac. well, not the ONLY one, but the amount of hot ppl is small enough in what i would consider a lukewarm church. and i admit, im lukewarm at times myself.
[lost? watch this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBhqrtMqrv8]
Francis also spoke about the lukewarm church at Passion07. actually, that was the message that touched me the most. "its not that i so big. its you so small!" im not all that spiritual. its just that you're NOT. in fact, i might even go as far as saying "im lukewarm. you're COLD". thats honestly how i feel about scac. its like their coldness rubs off and discourages me. but i dont think ive ever been spiritually fed at scac. my spiritual growth source has always been outside of scac. thruout high school, i guess its been TC and other christian events. last year, it was ACF. this year, its been personal devos and searching... mostly online.
now the question is... how can scac become hot? how to become that match that lights up? it can be a tiny flame, but hey... light trumps darkness! and the Eternal flame will keep us going =)

another thing... a lot of ppl seem to comment David Crowder Band's worship leading as concert like. really? i dont know about that. if anything, i'd say its a reminder that you can have fun while worshiping! yes, he brings out the keytar or guitar hero guitar, or he busts out a hoedown or incorporates super mario bros theme... but the focus and glory still goes back to God. and if anything, his call and response style (me first!) encourages the crowd to participate. its a different style of worship. and i like it =)

oh yeah.. dcb wasnt at passiondc. i was just refering back to passion07 and been watching dcb stuff on youtube and such. haha... and i've found this which made me laugh pretty hard! its from Charlie Hall and band recording their cd. the pianist (dunno name) starts playing the piano part for Closer. then Dustin starts singing other stuff, then others join in. then Kendall's expression is just priceless! Brian's highpitchedness is also LOL-worthy. =P

just proves that they're human, have a sense of humour, and similar to many of us. like how Tomlin, Giglio, Redman, Francis Chan, and Crowder constantly made fun of each other this past weekend and in the podcasts. hahaha!!

Redman: i like wordplay. like how Britney Spears is an anagram of presbyterians. an anagram is when you mix up the letters
giglio: what do you get outta Chris Tomlin?
Redman: a tiny little Texan... if you add an X!

HAHAHAHA
and if you find Francis Chan's youtube vlog, you'll find some hilarious videos!


but anyways, thats it for now about PassionDC. once again, like my blog description over there ----->
i cant do a one post summary of the conference. i guess it'll be noticed over time. time to be a fruitcake! =)



12:30am (next day) edit:
oh yeah. there's a nudge telling me to share about Do Something Now with scac. how should i go about doing this? as in... obviously, share about DSN from passion07 and passionDC.. which ones from passion07 should i share about? and after sharing, it would only make sense to initiate a DSN at scac. suggestions? towels/socks? oneverse? Passion world tour? Bibles Unbound?

life is like a musical!

you know when sometimes, life is like a musical? like, there's a certain scenario, and you just wanna break out into dance and song! :D
or you can totally see a certain point in your life which definitely qualifies as musical dance/song worthy!
well, yesterday, on the subway, i wanted to break out into song. :D
what was the scenario? well, i was heading home, on the subway, and had my headphones in my ear. playing some worship.
I WANTED TO BREAK OUT INTO WORSHIP!
its like... when im driving, and my mp3 player is plugged into the car's sound system, and i just belch out those songs! YEAHHHH!! definitely one of my personal favourite ways of worshipping. alone in the car, driving, windows can be up or down, and i'll be singing along! if you happen to be driving beside/behind me, you'll most likely see me bobbing my head along, singing along, AND tapping along :D
so back to being on the subway, i just wanted to SING OUT and lift my hands. but i didnt. funny how it can be a jammed packed subway but its like the quietest ever. with sooo many ppl together, its silent. like... equivalent of the 3000 ppl at passion reflecting in silence. well, totally different moods but noise level coming outta ppl's mouths, same.
so there i was, standing on the subway, mouthing silently with a smile on my face. and apparently, i move my eyebrows along with the drum beats (snare part). i must've looked like a doof... or a fruitcake. but i dont care. i just wanted to SING SING SING cus i know im loved by the King!

still on the search for answers.
19 years in a christian environment, still got tons to learn. and i dont confine myself to SCAC either.
i got the exact answer i was expecting from my parents... knowing their conservative background. haha... think im gunna talk to pastor tim. this is gunna be interesting.
but for the time being, back to the Bible and prayer.

oh yeah, and Passion08 in a few days! im excited for whats gunna happen!

so everytime i write a new entry, i hate coming up with a (witty) title. it just annoys me. like... do i really need a title? usually.. i'd just put the date for my written journal entries. but since its blogger, it already has the date. so i dont need to do it. oh well.. anyways! i hate titles. so i've titled this one blank. =) simple and done!

but yeah. i cant believe its nearly mid feb. where has the first month and a bit of 2008 gone to? i dont think ive done much. lol... most memorable memory of 08 so far... perhaps the first week of the year, before back to school. it was just so awesome seeing so many of the friends i made back in the high school and pre high school days. being able to kick of jan1st with a revival meeting at scac. a chance to worship in song, and prayer walk around the inside of the church. then after that, a bunch of us from coluni hit up timmys (how canadian... ahaha) and i ended having an amazing chat with heidi. =) i love how we can be about 6hrs apart during the school year, and so busy with our school lives. but while at school, we encounter and learn similar things, only to come back and share a similar passion/vision. and we also share similar interest in other things... like our music tastes. haha... definitely good times, and sharing the bad times too. I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU DURING READING WEEK! (or rather.. family day weekend for me. =]).
then there's my high school bunch from AY. prom table #17 ppl. haha... so much so share about with each other. 4 different universities. definitely learning and experiencing loads. we'd better meet up during reading week or something! whens the last time we were all together? thxgiving breakfast? wow...
most memorable memory while back at univ? frosh cell dinner! great turn out. randomness during sharing. (hot vs cute. urinals? stalls? HAHA) and met lots of froshes too! more new faces everytime! probs one of my fave frosh cell events all year. actually.. last term's bowling was quite fun too. show and tell was pretty good too. some froshes were REALLY creative. haha... (Sam's donut!). cookie run was fun too! waking up froshies at err... 1pm. =P haha.. i love froshies!
another memory is probs acf winter retreat. that was a great snowball fight! haha.. cant forget the rap videos either! haha... who knew we could create such a masterpiece? =P and a lotta other things have happened at retreat. both fall and winter retreat have been unlike any other retreats i've been to. fall retreat was a super relaxed retreat while winter retreat got pretty intense i must say. huge contrast, and just at either extremes. but funny how i didnt 'feel' the extremes. i was rather NOT relaxed at fall retreat and was super relaxed at winter retreat. lol... kinda like in the middle. guess everyone will experience it differently. also, everyone's coming from a different environment and going thru different things. so it'd be kinda abnormal if we all experienced the same thing? its like how we all (have) encountered God differently. we all have a different story to tell. which makes it so awesome that we can connect with so many other ppl. you dont have to be a certain 'criteria' to qualify to be a christian. we all qualify. no one is rejected. isn't that amazing? Colossians 1:12-14. right there. it says "giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. for he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins."
YAYY!! =)
the book of Colossians is awesome. a tiny book, but the 4 chapters are just filled. i dont know how many times ive read it thru this past week. but im just getting more and more out of it everytime. its awesome!

also, recently, i was reading thru Matthew. and check this out..
Jesus replied, "...Are you being willfully stupid?"
Matthew 15:16 (The Message)
HAHA.. i just bursted out laughing! Jesus called his disciples stupid! GG!

so my parents are currently halfway around the world, in Dubai. why? missions trip. this is the 2nd time my dad's been, and he's been estatic that my mother has agreed to go along this time. =) and last night, just before heading to acf, i checked my email and got an update from my dad. so they were there to help run bible studies, reach out to the chinese community there, and the special chinese new year celebration (i was helping my mom put together a LOT of chinese new year snacks/candy packages back in January when i went home. and it was a LOT of TnT junk. haha...). so when i checked the email, get this. 483 ppl attended.. AND 230 ppl accepted Christ.
CRAZY partying in heaven? i think so. PTL! yeah!!! =)
thanks for all the prayers ppl. for all those who've asked. and those who haven't asked. i know ppl have been praying.

you know... currently, my house is empty. both in London and TO. since my parents are away, the TO house is empty. in london, all my housemates went home probs cus of CNY. and the only comfort i've found is... listening to CHINESE worship songs. you know.. the ones my parents usually play in the car. like, the ones by Streams of Praise. haha... interesting how i've always unconsciously just ignored them, but the tunes are kinda drilled into my head. and since its in mando, i barely know what its saying. but in times like these, when i miss my parents (you'd be surprise at how halfway across the world vs a 2hr drive to toronto can actually make you miss them more), its coming back to things my parents do that helps. plus its chinese new year. even last year, my house was filled with relatives from HK. and this year, im just alone in london. hmm.. nobody likes changes. but what can you do...

once again, i blog because i need to study. haha...
ok bye!

how fast is pee?

i tried looking it up. but no answers. like... all the results that come up are how fast liquid travels thru your body before you have to pee. but what im trying to find out is how fast does the pee travel when you pee? like.. when it leaves your body, whats the speed? i wonder if anyone's measured this. hahaha.... do ppl pee at different speeds? does a person pee at a consistent speed?

*random*
i just noticed that 'pee' is within the word 'speed'. HAHA.

anyways, i think you can control the speed of your pee. but it'd still be funny to know the average speed. haha...

im so bored in class. clearly im not paying any attention. i wonder why im even in class?

everything is doable.
are you gunna do it?