PPDD: Post - PassionDC Dilemma

so everyone's been asking "how was Passion?" and all i can honestly answer with is "it was.... ." i didnt have an answer. altho ive spent some post-passion time reflecting, i couldnt figure out what i had 'gotten' from it. cus the 'thoughts' that came to me at Passion seemed to get 'unconfirmed' from post-passion til now. like in the moment, it was like "yeahh!! that's what im gunna do." or "that's the answer!" but it really was an in the moment thing. so i still dont know.. .but there's one thing i do know. i realized i missed the comfort of worshipping like that, with so many others. genuinely worship, ppl so passionate, not caring about what the person next to them is doing. its great knowing that 3000 others around you are there and focused on God. i crave that type of atmosphere. its like glimpses of heaven =). ACF's been different this year. i dont know what it is, but its just not the type of fellowshiping i desire. SCAC? not even close. Passion? thats more like it! one particular thing i really enjoyed about passion07 was the community/family groups. its amazing how our family groups were made of up approx 8-10 ppl who didnt know each other at all, from all over the US (or the world), but we could share openly with each other. actually, its even MORE open than with ppl you know. cus we'll highly likely never see these ppl on Earth again. and plus we've all got one thing in common, and that is God. and as we shared more and more, we all had similar troubles/questions/concerns. we're not alone. ooooh!! they touched on that at PassionDC. for some ppl, they were the only one from their campus. but at Passion, we saw that we weren't alone. there with us, was 3000 others and we're all part of God's army. =) that was a great reminder. cus i kinda feel like im the 'only one' from scac. well, not the ONLY one, but the amount of hot ppl is small enough in what i would consider a lukewarm church. and i admit, im lukewarm at times myself.
[lost? watch this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBhqrtMqrv8]
Francis also spoke about the lukewarm church at Passion07. actually, that was the message that touched me the most. "its not that i so big. its you so small!" im not all that spiritual. its just that you're NOT. in fact, i might even go as far as saying "im lukewarm. you're COLD". thats honestly how i feel about scac. its like their coldness rubs off and discourages me. but i dont think ive ever been spiritually fed at scac. my spiritual growth source has always been outside of scac. thruout high school, i guess its been TC and other christian events. last year, it was ACF. this year, its been personal devos and searching... mostly online.
now the question is... how can scac become hot? how to become that match that lights up? it can be a tiny flame, but hey... light trumps darkness! and the Eternal flame will keep us going =)

another thing... a lot of ppl seem to comment David Crowder Band's worship leading as concert like. really? i dont know about that. if anything, i'd say its a reminder that you can have fun while worshiping! yes, he brings out the keytar or guitar hero guitar, or he busts out a hoedown or incorporates super mario bros theme... but the focus and glory still goes back to God. and if anything, his call and response style (me first!) encourages the crowd to participate. its a different style of worship. and i like it =)

oh yeah.. dcb wasnt at passiondc. i was just refering back to passion07 and been watching dcb stuff on youtube and such. haha... and i've found this which made me laugh pretty hard! its from Charlie Hall and band recording their cd. the pianist (dunno name) starts playing the piano part for Closer. then Dustin starts singing other stuff, then others join in. then Kendall's expression is just priceless! Brian's highpitchedness is also LOL-worthy. =P

just proves that they're human, have a sense of humour, and similar to many of us. like how Tomlin, Giglio, Redman, Francis Chan, and Crowder constantly made fun of each other this past weekend and in the podcasts. hahaha!!

Redman: i like wordplay. like how Britney Spears is an anagram of presbyterians. an anagram is when you mix up the letters
giglio: what do you get outta Chris Tomlin?
Redman: a tiny little Texan... if you add an X!

HAHAHAHA
and if you find Francis Chan's youtube vlog, you'll find some hilarious videos!


but anyways, thats it for now about PassionDC. once again, like my blog description over there ----->
i cant do a one post summary of the conference. i guess it'll be noticed over time. time to be a fruitcake! =)



12:30am (next day) edit:
oh yeah. there's a nudge telling me to share about Do Something Now with scac. how should i go about doing this? as in... obviously, share about DSN from passion07 and passionDC.. which ones from passion07 should i share about? and after sharing, it would only make sense to initiate a DSN at scac. suggestions? towels/socks? oneverse? Passion world tour? Bibles Unbound?

life is like a musical!

you know when sometimes, life is like a musical? like, there's a certain scenario, and you just wanna break out into dance and song! :D
or you can totally see a certain point in your life which definitely qualifies as musical dance/song worthy!
well, yesterday, on the subway, i wanted to break out into song. :D
what was the scenario? well, i was heading home, on the subway, and had my headphones in my ear. playing some worship.
I WANTED TO BREAK OUT INTO WORSHIP!
its like... when im driving, and my mp3 player is plugged into the car's sound system, and i just belch out those songs! YEAHHHH!! definitely one of my personal favourite ways of worshipping. alone in the car, driving, windows can be up or down, and i'll be singing along! if you happen to be driving beside/behind me, you'll most likely see me bobbing my head along, singing along, AND tapping along :D
so back to being on the subway, i just wanted to SING OUT and lift my hands. but i didnt. funny how it can be a jammed packed subway but its like the quietest ever. with sooo many ppl together, its silent. like... equivalent of the 3000 ppl at passion reflecting in silence. well, totally different moods but noise level coming outta ppl's mouths, same.
so there i was, standing on the subway, mouthing silently with a smile on my face. and apparently, i move my eyebrows along with the drum beats (snare part). i must've looked like a doof... or a fruitcake. but i dont care. i just wanted to SING SING SING cus i know im loved by the King!

still on the search for answers.
19 years in a christian environment, still got tons to learn. and i dont confine myself to SCAC either.
i got the exact answer i was expecting from my parents... knowing their conservative background. haha... think im gunna talk to pastor tim. this is gunna be interesting.
but for the time being, back to the Bible and prayer.

oh yeah, and Passion08 in a few days! im excited for whats gunna happen!

so everytime i write a new entry, i hate coming up with a (witty) title. it just annoys me. like... do i really need a title? usually.. i'd just put the date for my written journal entries. but since its blogger, it already has the date. so i dont need to do it. oh well.. anyways! i hate titles. so i've titled this one blank. =) simple and done!

but yeah. i cant believe its nearly mid feb. where has the first month and a bit of 2008 gone to? i dont think ive done much. lol... most memorable memory of 08 so far... perhaps the first week of the year, before back to school. it was just so awesome seeing so many of the friends i made back in the high school and pre high school days. being able to kick of jan1st with a revival meeting at scac. a chance to worship in song, and prayer walk around the inside of the church. then after that, a bunch of us from coluni hit up timmys (how canadian... ahaha) and i ended having an amazing chat with heidi. =) i love how we can be about 6hrs apart during the school year, and so busy with our school lives. but while at school, we encounter and learn similar things, only to come back and share a similar passion/vision. and we also share similar interest in other things... like our music tastes. haha... definitely good times, and sharing the bad times too. I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU DURING READING WEEK! (or rather.. family day weekend for me. =]).
then there's my high school bunch from AY. prom table #17 ppl. haha... so much so share about with each other. 4 different universities. definitely learning and experiencing loads. we'd better meet up during reading week or something! whens the last time we were all together? thxgiving breakfast? wow...
most memorable memory while back at univ? frosh cell dinner! great turn out. randomness during sharing. (hot vs cute. urinals? stalls? HAHA) and met lots of froshes too! more new faces everytime! probs one of my fave frosh cell events all year. actually.. last term's bowling was quite fun too. show and tell was pretty good too. some froshes were REALLY creative. haha... (Sam's donut!). cookie run was fun too! waking up froshies at err... 1pm. =P haha.. i love froshies!
another memory is probs acf winter retreat. that was a great snowball fight! haha.. cant forget the rap videos either! haha... who knew we could create such a masterpiece? =P and a lotta other things have happened at retreat. both fall and winter retreat have been unlike any other retreats i've been to. fall retreat was a super relaxed retreat while winter retreat got pretty intense i must say. huge contrast, and just at either extremes. but funny how i didnt 'feel' the extremes. i was rather NOT relaxed at fall retreat and was super relaxed at winter retreat. lol... kinda like in the middle. guess everyone will experience it differently. also, everyone's coming from a different environment and going thru different things. so it'd be kinda abnormal if we all experienced the same thing? its like how we all (have) encountered God differently. we all have a different story to tell. which makes it so awesome that we can connect with so many other ppl. you dont have to be a certain 'criteria' to qualify to be a christian. we all qualify. no one is rejected. isn't that amazing? Colossians 1:12-14. right there. it says "giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. for he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins."
YAYY!! =)
the book of Colossians is awesome. a tiny book, but the 4 chapters are just filled. i dont know how many times ive read it thru this past week. but im just getting more and more out of it everytime. its awesome!

also, recently, i was reading thru Matthew. and check this out..
Jesus replied, "...Are you being willfully stupid?"
Matthew 15:16 (The Message)
HAHA.. i just bursted out laughing! Jesus called his disciples stupid! GG!

so my parents are currently halfway around the world, in Dubai. why? missions trip. this is the 2nd time my dad's been, and he's been estatic that my mother has agreed to go along this time. =) and last night, just before heading to acf, i checked my email and got an update from my dad. so they were there to help run bible studies, reach out to the chinese community there, and the special chinese new year celebration (i was helping my mom put together a LOT of chinese new year snacks/candy packages back in January when i went home. and it was a LOT of TnT junk. haha...). so when i checked the email, get this. 483 ppl attended.. AND 230 ppl accepted Christ.
CRAZY partying in heaven? i think so. PTL! yeah!!! =)
thanks for all the prayers ppl. for all those who've asked. and those who haven't asked. i know ppl have been praying.

you know... currently, my house is empty. both in London and TO. since my parents are away, the TO house is empty. in london, all my housemates went home probs cus of CNY. and the only comfort i've found is... listening to CHINESE worship songs. you know.. the ones my parents usually play in the car. like, the ones by Streams of Praise. haha... interesting how i've always unconsciously just ignored them, but the tunes are kinda drilled into my head. and since its in mando, i barely know what its saying. but in times like these, when i miss my parents (you'd be surprise at how halfway across the world vs a 2hr drive to toronto can actually make you miss them more), its coming back to things my parents do that helps. plus its chinese new year. even last year, my house was filled with relatives from HK. and this year, im just alone in london. hmm.. nobody likes changes. but what can you do...

once again, i blog because i need to study. haha...
ok bye!