1.26.2010

selfless faith

what is that?
seriously think about it. what is selfless faith?

it's been sung so many times in 'Hosanna' by Brooke Fraser, or redone by many others including Christy Nockels and Starfield.

so what is it?
been learning quite a bit about not being selfish lately. more importantly, the 'it's about God, not me' aspect.

there's always the typical 'me me me' in our everyday lives. Twitter can be about bragging what's going in with me right now. facebook can be used to show off more about you (pictures, profile, friends list, etc). going to school to educate myself more, earn a better title and paycheck in the working world, school/work gets stressful and we whine about it.

how about stopping right now. and realizing that none of this is about me? or anyone else nor anything on earth. but rather, it's ALL about HIM. stop trying to be a better Christian. how about loving God more, and genuinely diving into His Word, spend time listening to what He has to say. and thru that, you will naturally become more of a Christ follower.
faith that is not about me, but Him. not about where I will end up when I die. not about my current worries and stress. but a faith where the sole purpose of any of our existence is to glorify Him! 1 Cor 10:31 and Col 3:17.


keep clapping. (story of this to come)


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1.24.2010

James 1:19-21

must not...
gotta slow down...
will not get frustrated...
have patience and high tolerance...
breathe!....

*exhales*

much better. =)

the perks of virtual communication. the immediate reaction is not seen. i have time to slow myself down, not be angry at them, and then response accordingly.
now to train myself to not be angry at all... THAT is the challenge.

1.21.2010

i made a rookie mistake. now all of me is paying for it.

so last night... i made the n00b mistake of wearing shoes that weren't broken in, for sports activities.
needless to say, i got owned. or rather, the back of my right foot got owned. above the heel part. the back of my ankle. the skin pretty much scraped off and started to bleed. oww... but of course, i pushed myself to keep going. refusing to stop and check on my skin. so the scraping goes deeper -_-

so now im really paying for it. showers are down right painful. small movements are painful. walking is painful. =( better yet... when my parents drove me back to london 2 weeks ago, they took my sball gear with them. and whats in my batbag? my FIRST AID KIT. GG. so if i had my first aid kit, at least i could've used my spray on band aid, then put gauze over my exposed wound. but now... im left with limited bandaids that are the wrong size. .

so as i was walking home today, i realized how everything i did, i felt the pain. i mean.. it wasnt unbearable or anything. but you still feel it and its just uncomfortable. thats when i thought of the passage from 1 Cor 12:12:31.
if you want to look at my analogy literally, think about it. every lil bit of your body is necessary. the next time you get a lil cut, or scrape your knee, or something. every movement you make will somehow affect your injury. its amazing how everything connects together. altho your "movement" may require the usage of a body part furthest from your injury, yet it will still manage to affect it.
look at the v26a. "If one part suffers, every part suffers with it."
its so true. think of the church that way. every single person in the church is needed. if say... the drummer isnt feeling all that well (can be physical health, emotionally, spiritually, etc). and it affects their drumming during that sunday service. the rest of the worship team will notice something isnt right. that may affect how they lead worship that morning. that in turn will affect the entire congregation. and until that one person, or one body part heals, the entire body will not be able to function properly nor in it's best state. so until everyone is in "good" condition again, we're not giving our best to God as a whole. individuals may continue to give all that they've got. just like how my arms may continue to do different things, my fingers will continue to type this blog post. but until my wound heals, i wont be able to properly walk nor shower without pain. =P
and if you read from v27 and onwards, those gifted with healing are to help those in need of healing. my brain will let the rest of my body know to look for things that may help. finding the bandaids, my hands will do their part in putting the bandaid on my foot, helping the healing process.

interesting huh? it took a stupid n00b mistake, and quite a lot of pain, to study this passage and understand it from a physical p.o.v. huh! =)

P.S. i seriously look fwd to recovering. haha...

1.13.2010

GOD

first thought that comes into mind when you see "GOD". go.


God cares.


that was mine. for today anyways.
whats yours?
(and yes, rhetorical question. because i know ppl dont visit this blog. so that should explain the lack of responses =P)

He cares. He really does. i am this small little insignificant speck. and He is the almighty God. yet He still cares for me. =)

no no no! i still love people!

hah.. don't get me wrong. i realized my last few posts were just 'frustrated at ppl' kinda posts. its just that things arent going as planned, ppl letting me down, broken promises… all that jazz.

and God never changes. He never fails me. through it all, His is faithful. and i wanna learn to be the same too.

and things just keep popping up to remind me that.

like Chris Tomlin's new song, "Chosen Generation". (or at least thats what i've named it =P

here's a snippet of the lyrics.



You are everything

more than all we need

God we live for You

yes, God we live for You

i've found this world to be

not enough for me

God we live for You

yes, God we live for You

1.10.2010

seriously...

you cant rely on ANY human.
only rely on God. and ask Him to give you the strength to accomplish things, if it is in His will to do so.

people.. stop letting me down =(

1.08.2010

praising God in the midst of suffering ain't all that difficult

y'know.. in Acts 16, it mentions Paul and Silas singing praises and praying to God in the middle of the night, when they were thrown in jail, after being stripped and beaten. (talk about a run on sentence. but i couldnt care less about grammar atm)
and honestly... its not all that hard to do so at all. i mean.. sure, ppl can question how they can still praise God after all that they've been thru. wouldn't they question why God allowed them to be beaten? to be stuck in jail for doing something for God? because they freed a girl from demons that had possessed her?

im quite confused atm, not understanding why im going thru some things, feeling the way i am, and in general, trying to put things into perspective. and it feels terrible. i really do want this to be over with. but the first thing i can think of doing, is praising God. even before trying to figure out why, and/or possible solutions to the problems.
throughout all this, im still continuously seeking God, diving into His Word, busting out the guitar and worshipping Him thru music... it was an automatic response.
why? cus He's the only hope ive got. He doesnt cause the sufferings. the devil does. having hope in Him is the last bit of happiness i have. other things/ppl on this earth will disappoint you, fail you, and hurt you. but He never will.
so the question is.. why wouldnt you continuously praise Him no matter what the circumstances are? it only makes sense to do so. really.

this is weird...

have this really weird feeling right now.
dont like it one bit.
and I want it all to just go away :(
can I just sleep until all is right in the world again?

I feel like a high schooler. I don't know what the problem is, but somehow I feel down. it's like my adolescent emotions aren't done playing with my mind yet.

well, that's a partial lie. I do know some of the contributing factors but WHY are they affecting me like this? I don't want to and probs shouldnt but my mind is unconsciously over reacting.


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so fed up!

at humans. other ppl. in a few different ways.
this really really sucks.

"this world has nothing for me
You are my One and only"
- All to You, Lincoln Brewster


question: how do you hold on to 22,000 college students singing 'how great is our God' accapella?
I mean, personal/devo worship is one thing, fellowship/community worship at fellowship or Sunday service is another, but what about an arena PACKED with 19k college students, connected via video feed to a convention center next door with another 2k college students?
seriously, it's like the 'furthest' I've 'gone' to see what it will be like in heaven with all the beautiful praises everywhere, non-stop!

a Passion2010 blog post to come soon. probably more than one. got some yays and nays to jot down.


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