oh dangg...

click here.
sweeeeeeeeeeet. haha....
TAKE THAT lord of the rings!

PS. not that i hate lotr. its just that ive never had interested in it. you know.. kids books tend to grab my attention more than adult books will.

have faith.
even just a tiny lil bit would do.
but it wouldnt hurt to have more.
thats what i need.
thanks Milton. good chat tonight. =) much appreciated bro! and goodluck with the last exam. seduce if needed. haha.. jk! (well, not really. you need the mark. =P)

and congrats to Sharon, Jo, and Dennis. DUNKED.!

oh! and Ravens double header in one week. CANT WAIT.!

there's soooooooooooooo many multiple SG opportunities here in TO this summer its getting a tad bit too ridiculous for my sched!...
AND IM UNEMPLOYED.
dangg... haha.. =) can you say wow? cus i sure can!

summer ACF
Team Calvin
coluni girls
coluni
BLAP
____ club 7 (virtual)
PBJT (sorta.. devos prep)
fridays pre-fellowship/dinner accountibility bunch

=)

well, on a more positive note, remember this and this?
guess what?
im completely healed. no doctors. no medication.
just prayer. and faith. =)
thanks if you did pray for me.
its been one full year. and now it just.. vanished!
wow...

and yeah.. wanna know what caused hte previous post?
the academic calendar arrived on monday and i have ZERO CLUE as to when i have to register 2nd year courses by. hmm...

career

question: where does my passion truely lie?
answer: its definitely not what im studying in MIT at UWO.

nor am i getting the marks to "reach for the top", so that gets me no where in that field. seriously reconsidering my studies. but i just cant let go of Western ACF. lol.. where else would i go? Ryerson. as much as i hated that building, at least its hands on stuff i would enjoy doing. i mean.. didnt i spend a good portion of my gr.11 and gr.12 extra curricular time doing theatre production stuff? and i get slightly excited when i see a sound/light board! i still find myself staring and naming all the lights at concerts and stuff. just studying how its set up, angled, etc. you name it. but not only the audio and lighting, i also watch for the special effects. even simple things like fog. you may think its simple.. but try adding in how much fog, timing, fan speed, when to turn on the fan, maybe more than 1 fan is needed, just to get the perfect thickness of fog at the right area, at the right time. FUN.
but then again, there's the digital production side that also excites me. making a video, mixing audio... but i dont have that sense of design. hence all the posters i make are crap. i just cant do pictures. suck at photography. dont do visual arts. and i cant do digital graphics either. hence animation isnt a choice for me. it doesnt even matter that i know html/xml and javascript. i suck at design so designing websites isnt an option. but i would love to do video editing. like.. real ppl videos. ive got a sense of music. so audio is another route for me. adding music to a video? i can do that. know whats another dream of mine? producing the soundtrack for a movie. DANGGG. that would be just lovely.
see... its not about what i want to do. but its also about what i CAN do. i suck at math. i suck at science. i just dont get business. and i just dont really give a crap about psychology and social science theories. what major industry in todays world is left? media. its just lucky that i also am fascinated by certain areas of it. just shame i suck at the visual arts part.
we'll see what 2nd year at western has in store for me. and if im able to leave ACF behind for Ryerson's Theatre Production program while taking some RTA courses as well. but guess it'll be ok. God's provided. ive gotten to know a fair bunch of RCCF ppl before and during 1st year =)
but yeah. its nearly 4am. career/academics break down. FRIG.
doesnt help that im also jobless, and my mother was yelling at me at 3am for showering at 3am. why was i still up? job hunting. fired off another 20 or so cover letter/resume emails tonight. and i get yelled at at 3am for doing so. *sigh*
WHYYYYYY....!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
job hunting since feburary. WHERE ARE ALL THOSE STUPID MANAGERS?!?!

"Dreams are meant for sleeping..."
that line's been stuck in my head for some time now. can be applied to 2 diff situations currently filling up my mind. but since we're on the career/academics topic, i shall elaborate on that.
what do you think about when you hear the word "dreams"? fairytales? DISNEY!?!?!?
check this link out. right click and download this here or this here. (2 diff files)
would love to go there for a semester. danggg...
ok. its 4am. i have nothing else to say. maybe i should sleep... i think i will.

bingo. found the song. didnt have to look far.

it's funny when you find yourself
looking from the outside
i'm standing here but all i want
is to be over there
why did i let myself believe
miracles could happen
cause now i have to pretend
that i don't really care

i thought you were my fairytale
a dream when i'm not sleeping
a wish upon a star thats coming true
but everybody else could tell
that i confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

i swore i knew the melody
that i heard you singing
and when you smiled you made me feel
like i could sing along
but then you went and changed the words
now my heart is empty
i'm only left with used-to-be's
and once upon a song

now i know you're not a fairytale
and dreams were meant for sleeping
and wishes on a star just don't come true
cause now even i can tell
that i confused my feelings with the truth
cause i liked the view
when there was me and you

i can't believe that i could be so blind
it's like you were floating
while i was falling
and i didn't mind

cause i liked the view
thought you felt it too
when there was me and you