thats all it takes.

seriously... that is ALL that it takes. 

the head really is separate from the heart.

wow.

edit/update: He's Just Not That Into You. SO TRUE. just asked a girl for her opinion, and asked a guy. WOW. talk about accurate reactions! HAHAHA.

brain overload.

theres been times when i wish i could just stay in the shower forever. i know this is definitely NOT the first time that ive mentioned on this blog of mine, about how i absolutely love showers. cus it gives me plenty of alone time to think. and alot of the time, they're quite inspirational too. 

altho its summer, i feel like ive got a LOT on my mind. its quite an overload. i mean... theres work, softball, illuminate v3, worship team, colluni stuff, AYers small group, etc.. thats just stuff to fill my everyday schedule. but on top of that, theres been other things on my mind and its bugging me. stuff i need to figure out so i will stop being confused, figure out where i stand in some things (perspective wise), and yeah... i mean, even softball triggers a lot of emotions. winning, losing, mind games whether to hit this pitch or not, how my own performance was, how other ppl on the team are performing... ugh.! im probably just overthinking a lot of things, a lot more than thought put into it than there needs to be. once again, going back to Gigi from He's Just Not That Into You, over thinking and analyzing every little detail, and probs taking things waaaay outta context. so far out that its just stupid nonsense and just pure dumb. 

i dont know... too much on my mind. felt like i needed to blog. but im also lacking sleep.

goodnight.

why i respect MJ

everyone's heard of michael jackson. whether it be from the days when he was in the Jackson 5, or when Bad came out, the the epic music video Thriller was released, or when he started turning white, or when his nose jobs made him look less and less like a human, or when he was with 'little boys'... everyone's heard of him.

ive always heard of his name. but never really bothered looking into his music or anything. most likely heard songs here and there like ABC or Billie Jean but never knew it was by him. the first song i properly knew that it was by MJ was probably She's Out of My Life cus Jon Lee from S Club 7 sang it as a solo in the S Club Party 2001 tour. absolutely loved it. the second song i knew was probably Heal The World cus some kid did it back in jr high for talent show, and he did an AMAZING job.! (side note. that was an awesome talent show! that was when sue was on electric, i was on drums, and amy was singing and we did Now That You're Near =P). 

then Blue also did an MJ medley in their 2003 (?) Guilty Tour. they tried pulling off the Thriller moves. nope... sorry, but no. haha... and as a Busted fan, they also mentioned MJ in their song, Year 3000. and of course, Westlife. haha... they've done quite a few MJ songs in their medleys including Wanna Be Startin' Something, Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough, Blame It On the Boogie, Billie Jean, I'll Be There, etc. plus they've often had MJ playing in the background during photoshoots and stuff. haha... like the MJ's greatest hits.

then i remember one time, back in like 2004 or so? dont remember.. but when we had satellite tv in the basement, i caught some special MJ anniv concert on TV and wow... that was the first time i saw MJ as a performer. as an entertainer. and i gotta say... never seen anything like it! like, i knew he was the one who made the moonwalk famous, the white gloves, the black pants too short white socks black shoes combo (btw, no one else can pull that off so dont even try). but the way he sings, dances, and moves like that... WOW. thats when i understood why so many artists respect him and look up to him. not only were his songs catchy and such, but he can actually perform them live.! 

in 2nd year, i took an english course where it was studying the english in media. so one lecture, we studied "Thriller". yeah... that was our lecture. learning about an MJ MV! it was awesome. all his MVs are pretty creative i must say. unique in their own way, and never been done before concepts too. 

what a performer... i never saw him live but there have been multiple times when i stood in HMV, debating if i wanted to buy his DVDs. haha... i have yet to buy one. but at this rate, i think he'll be selling loads. so hopefully i can get my hands on something soon. 

of course, thru all that, there was plenty of negative publicity as well, with him dangling the baby over the balcony, 'touching' lil boys, his physical appearance, etc. but just take a look. the moment he's dead, ppl remember his music. how he's influenced pop culture for so many years with his music, his dancing, his own unique style thats captured so many. and he's broken quite a few world records too. so hats off to him. respects. RIP MJ. your music will live on.

oh summer...

so its been an interesting summer so far.
kicking it off with a 3 week trip to hk/beijing/xian with the parentals, then 3 weeks of bumming, and now half way thru week 2 of work.
as usual, plenty of going out, softball, bbt, seeing plenty of toronto ppl, not so much western ppl. its been good playing on the same team(s) as some western ppl and a good chunk of scac ppl go to western too or else i'd probs be completely cut off from western ppl. ive always enjoyed home a lot more. every time i come home during the school year, that weekend is used to relax and go chill or something. even if i brought books, i wouldnt touch it whatsoever.
i still cant believe that 1.5 months of summer is gone. =( too fast. im not ready to start my last year of univ just yet. i still feel so young, inexperienced, not smart enough, so much more to explore and learn! sorta the same feeling when i was finishing up high school and trying to accept the fact that i was going to university! it always seems so far away. cus all you do in gr9-12 is work for marks to get into univ. but it always seemed so far away. you take all of 1st year to adjust and get used to what univ is like, especially since i was outta town. no parents, no curfew, no limitations. its up to you if you wanna study/sleep/eat or not. 2nd year comes along, you're thinking you finally got the hang of this! but nope, moving out of rez, adding on groceries/cooking/chores to the schedule. 3rd year comes along, studies get more in depth and hardcore.
who knows what to expect for 4th year? its all too fast. being a frosh and having the older acf brothers and sisters baby me, then 2nd/3rd year, becomes my turn to look out for froshes. of course i will continue to do so in 4th (already started, finding out the new froshes from scac that are going to western!!!).
its been an interesting journey so far. and once again, its a busy summer for me. well, really bored at work. so im back on blogger, and reading other ppl's blogs. haha... its a good past time.
but anyways. back to work. more posts to come.

he's just not that into you

so it's 5am, and I don't seem to be able to fall asleep. so I've decided to blog instead... from my phone. I don't know why I put myself up to type so much from my phone. but since I can't sleep, and my godbro's kid is now cry-.. no, screaming (he just turned 1 last week. not so adorable right now!!!), I might as well blog.. from my phone!

so around late march, I met a friend who recommended that I watch 'he's just not that into you'. I didn't get a chance to see it til apr24, the night of my last exam (which was from 2-5). so I did see it (with a bunch of single girls might I add =P) and ever since, I've been giving it much thought.

a lot of it seemed to be true things that I've never realized, or always knew but never put it into words, aka never thought it was that big of a deal. after rewatching the movie another two times recently (skimmed thru it the 3rd time), I've realized I have gone or am currently going thru approx 4 of the characters' experience/situation (or at least partial)

1) the girl who over thinks, over analyzes, and thinks waaaaaay ahead.
basically, every guy she meets (and maybe just remotely interested in), she'll wonder if he's THE ONE. she then proceeds to analyzing every single detail and action, wondering what they mean and jumping to conclusions, but they usually end up with the guy not interested at all, and the actions are typical guy actions. which sorta in a way is her own fault, while her friends also come up with excuses as to why he didn't call, or other ridiculous, yet hilarious reason for his (lack of) action(s).

2) the girl who had everything a girl could ask for from a guy, but he wasn't the one.
basically. the 'dream' guy was there, but she had her eyes on someone else, or just knew he wasnt the one.

3) the guy who was ready to give everything for her, but she doesn't return the feelings. and can't figure out why.

4) the girl who does everything virtual.
bssically, she'll meet ppl online, arrange dates, then meet up in person.
its 2009, and with the help of technology, i think a LOT of ppl do this. in terms of they meet someone, whether in person or online, get their basic profile and contact online (thru facebook or something). virtual comunication begins. and whether they meet up in person goes from there. and it's true what they say. remember back in the day, when everyone one only had a home phone? and it's either they called or didn't call. but now, there's so much technology (home/work/cell phones, voicemails, txt, personal/work emails, facebook, twitter, msn, etc), that if you're expecting/anticipating the 'other person' to contact you, you'll probably get rejected by all those mediums except for one. how sad is that? yet true.

interesting how a movie like that can provoke so much thinking from me that it got it's own blog post. lol... and that's saying something considering I haven't blogged in awhile!!

great movie tho. I've talked to a few girls to get their perspective on things. like do girls really act like that? do guys act like that too?
can a guy watch it and give me their their thots about it?

PS. it is now 5:30am and I will attempt sleeping again. holy crap I am gunna die at work on monday!!! ah well... starbucks to the rescue!

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