focus. FOCUS. ooooh. a gift?

"never give in to the lie that anything is better than Jesus."

-Louie Giglio

aka He's my #1. =)

Louie said that quote at Passion05. but its been popping into my head a lot since fall retreat. so i decided to finally look it up and repost it i guess. maybe i'll even tweet it. okay i will... later! haha...

anyways. its 3am. and i decide to start up a blog post. [cough typicalunivstudentsleepschedule cough] *ahem*

leaving london and going home 2mrw for the thxgiving long weekend! yay! yet its 3am and i havent packed yet. haha.. hope i dont forget anything. its okay. im trying to travel light. actually.. ive been saying that since 1st year. i've always pictured it as just me, backpack, with laptop in it, at max 1 textbook, then thats it. but nope. always at least another piece of luggage with me like a duffle bag that gets pretty filled. haha... okay i'll pack after i post this.

what was i gunna say... oh yeah! so i was on the phone with my mom earlier tonight, just finalizing travel plans/times for 2mrw. and she tells me ive received a birthday box/package at home. and im thinking "uh.. you mean one of the many things i order from the internet?" (its true... i think im waiting for like 3 things to arrive. haha.. uh oh!) but my mom goes "no.. it says its a birthday gift".

hm... interesting. first of all. its 2009, and i still get gifts (or anything really) via snail mail? second, im turning ten ten one. i still get gifts? and 3rd, its 2009. whoever sent it, get the date right! dont send it 2 days early. actually, now that i think back, im not sure if i got it via snail mail or if someone dropped it off. =P yeah.. overthinking this. hahaha.. no worries if the sender is reading this. im grateful and appreciate it all the same, even tho i dont know what it is nor who its from. its a change from the 'norm' or from the typical and that usually grabs my attention. so now im looking fwd to going home even more =) hoping im not hyping this up like crazy for myself. i tend to do that.

21 in like 2 days. (technically 2mrw since its already 3:15am meaning its already the 9th today). i dont know what to say anymore. when you're younger, you look fwd to getting older. y'know, more responsibilities, less parental control, more freedom. when you're older, you attempt to deny your age, cus you dont want to get old. you miss your youth. im just not feeling either responses. content with where i am right now or what i will be in two days (not that it really matters. seirously.. 2 days difference?) but yeah. its a good balance atm. old/mature enough to have your parents' trust, can baby the froshes, guiding other non 4th years, been of age for a while now (yay canada!). and at the same time, i sitll feel the youth in me. ever since i start office jobs (2007 summer), my gchat list has been growing, and being filled by ppl who are already working. hence older friends who are already in the working world, at the same time, they're also older bros/sis' yet also friends of mine. but we're not at our parents' generation/age. haha...

s'all good. s'gunna be a good few years to come for sures. maybe when i have to admit im stuck working every week with no summer holidays.. it'll hit me then. haha... for now, its a good balance. not too young, not that old either. =)

since i started it, i might as well continue the typical 'another year' posts. so what happened when i was 20? gosh this feels like another "and now to wrap up 2008 and welcome 2009, this year, i did this! and this! etc" haha... nothing stands out too much. guess i gotta mention that i finally went back to hk, and went to other places in china for the first time. my first time in hk was when i was 7. so dont remember too much (seriously.. how much of your 2nd grade do you remember?). went back this time, wow. talk about culture shock! going to beijing and xian really opened my eyes to just how brilliant the ancient chinese were. the things built, the art, the 'weird' things worshipped, finally seeing the Great Wall, etc.

okay i give up. its 3:30am and im writing stuff for the sake of blogging, procrastinating from packing... haha... most of this post doesnt even relate to the blog title. whoops!