here we go again...

for the 4th time (and hopefully final time?), here we go again!
not neccessarily a bad thing. could be good. *shrugs*
but yeah. hmm... dunno what to think tho. hmmm...

ah well. $180 and counting in red pockets!
new glove for softball, and new batting gloves comin' right up!.. i can smell it! =P


5pm edit:
well, the red pockets count is now at $380, plus i havent seen any of the relatives on my dad's side yet. talk about blessed. but i think i have a hunch of why this sudden rush of money. think it's God's way of telling me that He's providing for what He wants me to do. funny.. the way God works eh? but tis amazing! too amazing! therefore i must put to good use of this money. or 'talents' and not burry it. or rather, since its money, not waste it on stupid useless stuff. time to talk to some ppl about some 'deals' i can make. lol..
col/uni winter retreat 2mrw. should i have high expectations for something marvelous coming up? HURRAY TIFF IS COMING! there are now TWO froshies! w00t.! im not lonely! s'like God providing for Moses. he 'cant talk to ppl'.. God provides Aaron. and all other excuses Moses has. God provides. no chance of backing out!
now i must connect this with Passion07. Main session 3, Francis Chan talked about "do you really want to know God's will for you?". like, if God were to tell you teh complete layout of your life, would you say yes? think about it. do you really wanna know where your life is headed? we'd all be scared. i'd be scared. why? probs cus it means we'd have to make certain sacrifices. things we don't wanna let go of. or doubt. doubting that the 'will' is gunna actually happen cus it seems so impossible. but now im actually kinda excited to see how things will turn out. just the smallest steps, are the key steps to changes. and He's already given me courage to make one small step. more amazingly, it was thru a simple email to the eng pastor of scac. think it stirred up a fair bit of discussion too. but this is only the beginning. im antipicating a whole lot more! cus i can't make any changes. only He can. and He can do a LOT.

PS. just reread what i wrote. and things seem to be all over the place and roughly connected (hence why i probs didnt do so well on my essays. hah). but its the basic jist of what i wanted to blog about. so there. done. deal. goodbye. have a nice day.!