not too hot. not too good. sorta warm with a really really light breeze. it was perfect.
i was walking home from the bus stop after my 2pm exam and fail'd attempt at studying, so this was at around sunset time, and i couldnt help but think about how awesome the weather was, and my past. y'see, back in gr5-9 (elementary and jr high), i would have to walk like 15-20min to school (one way) every day. and remember? it was a consistent 8:45am-3:10pm kinda sched, mon-fri. every morning, i would be those kids who'd sleep in as much as they could, scramble out the door, and speed walk to school in the span of 10-15mins. but afterschool was a different story. no matter how hot or cold (i dressed according to weather. yay!), i would always take my time afterschool. on average, the average walker would take 15min. but i took from 30-45min no problem. i mean... this was no short walk. down an entire street, thru a ravine, then down another entire street. and these were some of my favourite times spent with God. a consistent 30-45min everyday, no one else lived my way so i had time to myself to think. to meditate. to observe the neighbourhood, and boy do i live in a beautiful neighbourhood. =) both streets that i walk down, the ppl keep their lawns quite nicely. i also pass by my elementary school. then thru that ravine. wow... the bridge and the river. it was clean water. you could see the rocks at the bottom. super clean! unless it just rained. it would look like white water canyon at wonderland. haha... then the trees on either side of the walkway. as 'nature' as you can get in the city. then i would also pass by my 'then future' high school. all those walks, i used it as time to talk to God. reflecting on my day. what was to come. definitely some of my favourite moments in my walk with God. and this past friday's walk home from the bus stop was as close as it got to what it was before. y'see, when high school came along (gr10-12), i lived 8.5 houses away. (8 houses, then cross the street. hence 0.5 haha). like, i was soooo close to school that i used to go home to go to the washroom =P or when i said i was going to my locker to get a book, i would go home and get it. heck.. i think i forgot my locker combo cus i never used it. so the walks home were just like... going next door. haha...
i really enjoy walks. its something i should do more. but this london area doesnt seem that nice. campus is really nice. i remember always going for night walks in 1st year after my night class. maybe i can do that again next year when im living at beaver =)
but yeah... thinking about the past, i went thru my blog just now, after my exam today. not just this blog, but i have another blog too... that one was since 2004. and its true... ive seen how much ive grown/change. remembered some memories, some tough times. now i cant wait to get back to toronto and read thru journals! (dont ask... yeah.. i keep handwritten journals as well as typed blogs...)
after 20.5 years of life, or just a bit more than 7 years of baptized life (haha), ive realized that in a lot of my prayers, my 'go-to' default word when i dont know what say is "thanks". y'know when ppl say "umm.." or "like..." when they cant find the words or have nothing to say? yeah... if i really dont know what to pray about, i just go to something that i can thank Him for. and i guess that reflects what i think about most of the time. what am i thankful for? and i never have nothing to say. never. amazing huh? always constantly reminded by speakers, sunday school teachers, ppl sharing, and many others to think about 1 thing that you would like to change in your life right now cus it sucks. and 2 things in your life right now that make you feel blessed. and y'know.. the blessed always outweighs the crap. psychologically, ppl would just "thats just called thinking positive!" but how i see it, there truely is more goodness than bad in my life.
anyways, all this 'alone time', aka, studying, is actually putting more than just academics thru my brain. =P
i never know how to conclude blog posts. haha... man i suck at writing.
but whatevs...!
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