nerves...

things never go the way i planned it to be. and i feel kinda queasy about it.

and im a person who likes knowing whats up ahead in the near future. 

for example:

1) i was planning to call back into my work place. do a bitta chitchat, y'know, stay friendly. and confirm that i can return in the summer.

what happened? i called, went to voicemail, name change. whoa.! diff person. now what? i hung up. and now im gunna go into the office in person 2mrw. sorta not knowing what to say. what if the person who hired me is gone/transferred/retired and i dont get hired? i mean.. i sure i'll see someone i still know there. no way the entire department is gone since the beginning of january. so yeah... and i hope the new person in that position didnt hire someone else yet. =\

2) stats course. i got gg'd on the midterm. i admit that. but i planned it all out. work my butt off. and not only get the mark i need, but get waaay over what i need. the assignments showed my hard work. got my 87, then 98, then 100, then 97, then 98, then 100. sweet. walk into the exam with a 70. walk out with a 57. i need a 60 in the course. what the deuce... 

what happened? well, the entire class bombed the final. i got 50 on the dot. the average of the final was a 53. meaning majority of ppl failed (and they did). and the final course marks average is a 69 which is not too bad so i guess no bell curve. arranged a meeting with prof 2mrw, hoping to explain my situation, ask, then if not, beg for the 60. lets hope my prof has the understand of at least the average human.

bahhh.... found out both those things this past thurs. and hopefully both will be 'resolved' 2mrw (mon). lets pray and hope and have faith that things will go according to plan this time. lol.. 

as cliche and overused this verse is, here it is again. =P 

"now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see" Hebrews 11:1

if i fail at either or both, i have a feeling that the hk/beijing trip will be not so epic. bahhh...